Ok so not writing related but still on my mind so I feel like it would help to get it out, I am stressed about my health. I have been struggling for years to fight through warmer weather months and survive the flu and cold seasons. Every year I get the flu and pneumonia and because of a highly compromised immune system I am unable to get vaccinated against these or any other conditions like most of my family and friends.
The consistent illness I deal with have in the past cost me jobs and have put my current employment at risk which for the first time I am truly concerned about. I love what I do and do not want to put that in jeopardy. I have been working with doctors and am even trying to see a number of different specialists to try and come up with a diagnosis that would finally allow me to get better.
I must make it until March in order to reset the discipline I am under at the moment and that has me stressed further considering this is the most difficult time of year for me. I understand that having more time would mean I was able to write more and work harder to promote my work but that will not pay the bills at this time.
I am doing my best to balance the obligation of my day jobs, complete my writing projects by the deadlines and make sure that I keep myself in shape to help be as healthy as possible. I look forward to finding the balance so I can feel as successful and accomplished as I know I can be.